Luck by chance

I believe in will power or how badly you want something or rather anything in your life. The moment you doubt it whether you want it or not, it starts to slip away from you. It could be a person, it could be a thing, it could be a job, just about anything. When I say this to people they don't believe me. They say they have bad luck or as we call say in India "SHANI Around us" *Shani is like an evil spirit, that doesn't let anything good happen to you* I tell them if they keep saying no I am not getting a job, no I am not lucky enough to get that thing or have that person in my life even then your words and thought works but they make sure what you are thinking even if it is negative it will happen. But then apart from all this off late I realized there is a small factor of luck involved too. We are all scared of taking risk, doing something away from the usual. So, we end up sticking to the stereotype thats what we, the mediocre people are, the no lets not take the risk people. But people who thing to SCREW IT AND LETS DO IT with a come what may attitude may not be successful right from the first attempt but at least they wouldn't regret not having tried and they get the confidence. I want to be different but I have no idea, I have no plan, no strategy. Someday, hopefully. I will have an idea and I will make sure I do it. No matter what. 

Attachments

Emotions ? Attachments ? Grief ? Departing from loved ones ? I have some how overcome most of these  all thanks to a dear friend of mine whom I hate the most right now, my ex. May be it is for the good but I know I miss my parents the most. This person made me realize nothing is more important in your life than your parents at least that's how it is for me. At the moment. I have become emotionally detached from most things. Love, friends, family. But that doesn't mean I am not happy. I do get happy often :) I get happy for silly things, for things that seem trivial and remain un noticed.

On a different note. I went for a wedding reception yesterday. The bride and the groom fell in love and decided to get married. They were not the perfect couple, that was the first thought in my head when I saw them, but then I realized there is no perfect couple. We find each other. EVENTUALLY. We make ourselves adapt to each other. The easier the adaptation, the stronger the love. I like someone, I get over obsessed about that person and then I stop liking him so that I don't get into a relationship or fall in love with him. Way too much for me to handle.

I am in love with Lana Del Ray and Ellie Goulding their music relieves me from most of my tensions not that I have many *touchwood*,  but anyway. I also like checking out videos of iisuperwomanii on youtube. She's strangely funny :) *I just thought about her and I am smiling already* You must watch her videos. I tried showing them to my room mates and they didnt understand any of it :-| Hate it when people dont understand what I am trying to tell or show them.

This feels like a book except that each paragraph is a different chapter, with no connection between any of the them :P I am done for now. I want to start trying to write poems like I used to earlier but this time not about a person. No way. People annoy me. I find most people annoying. Cant help it. I've become cynical. That's the whole reason why I started blogging after a long time.  Something I call self indulgence :) Like my new lush scrub. "OCEAN SALT" omg I am in love with it. I take bath just so that I can smell that scrub. I am totally gonna buy a new one once I finish it. It smells like margarita. :D Its pretty late right now I should head to bed.
Till my next post.

Cheers

Issues

I was a big slut but I am not anymore there's always gonna be a big part of me that was sloppy and dirty but I like it with all the other parts of myself can you say that about yourself. - Tifanny (silver linings playbook)

There are always gonna be people who judge other like Tifanny. For the only fact that shes a slut. Cant people like her in real life actually be left alone and made to change instead of taking advantage of the fact that shes a slut. Usually no one would. Cos its easier to have sex and get laid then to think of the future of a person and change her. Get her out of her mess. Its not just issues related to girls. Even guys have issues, but its just that I am not a guy and I have no idea what they go through.