Failure

Failure is the opportunity to begin again, only this time more wisely.

Some failure in life is inevitable
It is impossible to live life without failing at somepoint
unless you lived so cautiously that you don't fail at all in your life
and by that you have failed life by default.

It might be difficult to handle but believe in yourself, You will get though with everything in life.
But never lose faith in yourself no matter who tells you what you are, who you are or what you will be. It is your life, make decisions for yourself. Make Life YOURS. 

Gratitude

“To every person I have ever known, 

I join my hands in humility, 

and beg forgiveness,

for any error I committed, 

knowing or unknowing.

Even though you and I

are two distinct individuals, 

Separated

by walled-in compartments of self, 

yet when you lose,

I don’t win.”

The path to true and lasting peace 

begins with unconditional forgiveness.

To end the war without

let us first end the war within.”

Gratitude- From the book (Mahabharata) written by Ashok K Banker 

My father loved these words so much; I realized when he read me these lines, this was what he instilled upon us (me and my brother), to be Humble and have gratitude towards people. 

Get a life

If life was easy as it is 

With no complications

Nothing to worry about,

That wouldn't be called a life. 

Life is shitty. 

You realize it as you grow older.

You realize you've had shitty friends,

Atleast that's what they make you feel.

Life is complicated. 

But that's what you made out of your life. 

No one asked you to be the way you are right now;

No one forced you to do the things you do;

But it is your life, your doings.

If only life was as easy to forget the bad leave them behind
and remember the good and carry them with you;

Life would be so much different. 

So much more happier. 

So much more merrier. 

But we are humans, 

We sulk, 

We live in the past, 

The bad deeds in life.

But Remember, that will never take you forward. 

All you need to do is go GET A LIFE !

Be where you are celebrated not TOLERATED. 

Change

We constantly keep on changing or as I call it evolving in our lives. 

The only thing permanent though out this life is change,

Whether you like it or not 

life takes you through it.

I am glad I accept changes pretty quick. 

I am used to changes in my life constantly 

Now, if I don't have anything new in my life 

I feel like my life has become boring. 

Its weird how I have accepted change. 

I never realized I can adapt so easily to almost everything around me.

Wait, Am I a chameleon ? 

Dream Big

No dream is too big.

No Goal in unreachable

Do not be lazy and try to be proactive.

Let Failure not get to you.

Nor should success.

Every success should lead to the next big thing.

Never stop; 

Come what may.

The Isolation Trip

This was a much needed trip specially after the crazy weekend I had before I left. Every Holiday/weekend/long weekend I either end up in Mr and Mrs R's house or in New York, not that I do not like these places or like hanging out with them but I just wanted a break free from everything that I was familiar with. I wanted to meet new people/see new places to Just be in a new environment. I love being out of my comfort zone. Weirdly, being out of my comfort zone is my way of being normal. I have a strange sense of freedom and not being judged. We all hate being judged. I, for a fact hate people even telling me what my flaws are. I know what I am, I know what I mess up in my life, I do not want people to remind me about it. The whole point of this trip was to forget everything, let go of all my restrictions and constraints and live my life the way I want it to be.

My Mystery friend

 These were taken at the comic con in staples center. My first ever Comic con. Was Fun trying to guess who was who. Most of them were characters we hardly knew.

Sherlock 

Marilyn Monroe on the Walk of fame in Hollywood Blvd

The Hollywood sign

And finally Venice beach, watching people do random stuff. Watching skate boarding was my fav part.

Overall, was a great trip and got to meet some interesting people.

My kind of 'weird' people

I am probably a little out of mind to be writing this but I just want to get it out.
I like quite a few people in my life and I love more people off late not sure if its for the good or the bad but i love it. I don't know if they know it but I love them for who they are with me and not what they are with me.

Those lines were written when I was tipsy and probably wanted to do a lot of shit but I decided to do this instead. I realized I am getting less cynical in life. Why ? Cos life is too short to go on hating people. There will always be people ready to hate you for one small mistake you did in your life, just don't give a shit about those people, I've been doing that and I realized my life is much more peaceful and I am a much more happier person.

So what are the MY kind of people like. These people are 'like me' in a way but have their own unique way.

Chaitanya - (My 4 am friend.) Who loves staying awake at 4 am and giving me a call on face time no matter where just to say that he misses hanging out with me :P

Harsha - Cutest little annoying brat I ever came across. His sarcasm is unbeatable. But I've known him long enough to ignore his sarcasm and wait for that one moment when he pours love over me cos he genuinely loves me for being myself.

Manohar - The listener. The most innocently patient friend, who never expects anything and listens to every shitty thing I tell him no matter when I call him or talk to him I am smiling. :)

Teju - THE DUDE. Hes THE guy who's got swag and attitude and knows where and when to use it. A very good adviser cos he cares for the good of me.

Harshal - school friend but a friend only after school. Love talking to him. And GOSSIPING. ;)

Richard - My love. Hes a sweetheart. Love him for his belief that you don't need money to have fun. As long as you have open minded people you are happy. I am glad I found you and have you in my life.

Goutham - Tinku. Another kiddo/brat. Love the way we talk all the random shit in this world. Laugh and forget everything else in this world.

Gangadhar - My brother. My friend. My partner in most of the crimes I do :P My well wisher. :)

Shaheen - If I was to be a homosexual and give up hopes on men/guys. She would be the only girl I would want to spend the rest of my life with. The way we understand each other. The way everything we love about things around us. The very reason I am alive and grateful for. My Soul sister. Love her the most.

Esha - My oldest friend and the one person who knows most of my life. My best friend. My childhood friend.Distances may keep us apart but I still love talking to her/listening to her talk like I always used to.

Niharika - A fun person to hang out with. Shopping. Singing. Dancing. Shes been the one.

Krupa - Childhood friend. Another of those few people whom I've got immune to just cos I've been and known them for long enough.

Dhannu - My protector. If I ever needed someone to be by my side even when the whole world is against me. She wouldn't leave me for any reason.

This is in no particular order, they are the people that make me feel happy and make me smile and love me for what ever I am no matter what shit I do. I am sure I missed out a few people too but the best part about this is no matter where they are or when I talk to them they know I love them just as much as they love me.

The Frustration post

So this is a Frustration post. I want to vent out my anger and hopefully get over this whole thing. Cos it is bloody annoying. When I meet people I talk and if I have interesting talks with them I want to talk more cos I liked talking and off late I've come across some jerks. I am sure no matter what I write here would make the reader feel that I am the one who is at fault so I wouldn't wanna give out any details. I hope guys like him realize that the way treat girls like me or rather how they shouldn't treat girls. All that I expected was a little friendly presence. I should be happy to have such a lovely life and not think of the bad or weird people that I want in my life who do not want to be a part of my life. Life goes on. IF only it was as easy as I told. But life goes on...Today or tomorrow I WILL GET OVER IT...

Hope

Hope. It is easy to say have hope. Hope is important every point of your life.
The happy times; when you hope that happiness stays forever/longer,
The sad times; when you wish your life was better.
We lose hope easily.
No matter how bad your days are how dark your life seems at the moments,
Lets try to survive and move forward with the hope, of a better tomorrow.

We should be fortunate for what we have, where we are and how we are living our lives.
Your life may be different from mine.
My life is MINE and mine alone. I own my life.
Just as much as you own yours.

I know a lot of people are there to support me and my brother specially my parents.
I want my brother to be happy that is all I care about.
I know what he is going through and every time I see him, or talk to him I know what hes going through.
I want him to stay strong. I wish a small prayer from everyone who sees this can help my brother in some way. At least to over come his hurdles.

I probably sound like those spam messages that ask for a million likes or a billion shares on Facebook.

I am not.

I believe in the power of prayers, the power of hope, the power of positivity. The pure power of support from people near and far. That is the whole reason I am writing this.
I just want him to smile, be that ideal role model that he is for me. That elder brother who knows everything before I even start talking. I want him back. Hope to see him soon.

Being THIS

I am happy. 
I am just happy for what I am, 
I am happy for not what I was 
or what I will become, 
Just happy for THIS;
This life,
This moment,
Never loved it more.
This is my moment,
This is my life ,
And I love it.