Imperfect me

It's been a crazy month. Had a great time in Disney land saw all my favourite charachters .. Felt like a kid, I actually behaved like one and I enjoyed it thoroughly .. I was so excited that the next post that I wanted to write a huge blog about my experience and how I even cried cos it's been my childhood dream to go to Disney but all in vain... I am writing this post with tears rolling down my eyes, being absolutely cynical, more cynical than I have ever been. I wonder why I even learnt the meaning of that name in the first place... I know we all are imperfect.. But it's just too annoying to talk to any person that I know... They keep annoying me at one point or te other make me feel that I am living for them like I am supposed to adapt to their lifestyle, their daily routine, their way of living. May it is my fault that I even let them take me for granted I try to think of other things I like. Like music. But even that is ruined. I know it just a bad phase we all go through it but what's the point when you have no one to listen to you in such a bad state .. That is exactly what I am going through.. No one wants to talk to me not even mr. S :( feels gloomy and depressed although It is a lovely day and I got my first ever salary it still feels weird :( wish there was a way that people understood about other people just by looking or feeling the vibrations and react accordingly.. May be they are selfish.. May be they we all are selfish and think about others unhappiness as our happiness an vice versa.. Or may be this is just a sign to search my inner peace.. So many distractions and disturbance that I don't even know what I am looking for... I know all this but the only thing I don't understand is how do I do it.. Or may be consider life as a moment of spontaneous happiness and keep it for a long enough to make me pas through even phases like these or may be I just need music and dance.. It's all very clear but still so unclear.. In the end of the day all that matters is how connected are we to our inner peace ..I have no idea what I am talking but strangely I am not crying anymore xos I know I have my blog to ran out my feelings :) cheers to my blog :) for making me smile or atleast making me stop crying but eventually the credit goes to me to end my evergreen depression.. I just realize my post sounds as dumb as my tweets that is probably why I like tweeting as well.. Off to college for now .. And wishing for the best :)