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I make such a bad company for people who know me. I dont know what is in my head and I dont know how to tell it when I have to. I dont want to hurt you but I ALWAYS DO :( .

I never think before I speak something and always expect you to know it. I hardly think before I talk and you always realize I talk crap.

Even I realize it only after I finish saying it to you. I know I 've messed up things a long time back and it would take a long time to repair it but I really wish things were better at least I was better, a better person, a person who spoke more legibly in front of you. Some one who would make sense in what she talks BEFORE SHE OPENS HER MOUTH TO TALK.

I don't know how to make it up to you each and every time, I feel guilty to even say that I am sorry. Because it seems rather like a mistake done intentionally, And, like my aim is to hurt you every single time we have a talk.

But eventually There is one thing I always realize that I do love you after all.

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Damn, I am such an idiot. Why do I always expect things to go my way ? I M DEFINETLY NOT GOD!

I am not sure what happened but she seems very happy... his friends gf... ( I presume ) and he was with them to rejoice the moment. I dont have a clue as to what is happening.. But I definetly miss talking to you and that small time I get to talk to you is also become worthless..

Anyway, I am off to sleep for today with the hope that you will , rather, we will have a chat, a proper one tomorrow.

Gone Into my dreams...

FLYING!!!

Goodnight...

Sweetdreams....

You happy... me happy ... all happy....

And finally the day he was waiting for had arrived.. something special.. something we dint plan for.. glad for this day.. More than Happy to see that small :) when he types a text or puts it up because of something that happened.. now dont ask me what is was but conclusion is....

You HAPPY

ME HAPPY

ALL HAPPY :)

Nothing more that I could have asked for than that smile on your face...

The question always remains why do you love me so much ?

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So, There I go again. Make a blunder and pretend like everything is just fine. I hate myself for every time I do that.

Damn, Its hard to realize and change.

I saw a couple of videos after we had that small conversation, made me wonder that life is a lot more than what you actually think.

Nothing is impossible, You probably heard it a million times but we just read it and then move on. But today it really did make me think not sure how long it will last but it is making me think a lot. It makes me think what I am doing ? The fact is sooo stuck in my head that even though I so badly want to write a long apology letter for you, M not able to, I hope you understand that I am really sorry. I know how you feel and shouldn't have taken any fight for soo long. My mistake.

Anyway here is the video.

I don't know y I am so philosophical all of a sudden but I just want you to know, no matter how much I complaint, no matter how much I argue, I only want you.

And I am really very sorry for that stupid thing I did. :(

P.S - <3>

miss you RAICHUR

Four years in Raichur, the place I did my graduation, the place I hated the most, the place that gave me creeps every time I thought about, is finally over. But I guess all those rants about this place turned me into a new person, a better person, a different person with more confidence than ever before.

I enjoyed every moment *well almost* :P.