Pain. *left drafted*

This was something I wrote long back, don't remember the date but was when "S" told me that I was talking like Revathi* .

This was basically because he never talks to me and I keep complaining that he doesn't spend much time talking to me.

You compared me to some girl, I don't care about. You don't have to do that. . Hope you know there is a lot of difference between her and ME.
You think I am asking you to stop doing what ever you are doing, I am not, but I think I deserve a few more minuted of you life. To hear you laugh, to hear you talk, to listen to what is happening in your life, to make me feel I AM A PART OF YOUR LIFE.
May be I should not expect that from you. I never knew I love you so much as I do right now. The pain is unbearable. Sorry is probably of use because I said things I shouldn't have told and I know what you are going through. The same pain but for a different reason.

It is my fault, it is always. I am sorry.

You are the only love of my life. The only person whom I wish filled the emptiness within me that I am goin through.

I could be expecting a lot from you. But expecting LOVE IN RETURN ? Is that a sin ? A love in return, a love to comfort me, a love to share, a love of selfless care, I know you love me but this is not how things are supposed to be.
I want you to fill every drop of blood, every beat of my heart and every molecule of air *I breathe*.

I will try not to disturb you.I know you are pissed off at me but I don't want you to be angry and for a ZILLION TIMES I WOULD REPEAT


I AM NOT "REVATHI"*

Random ramblings

Ok.This is after a long gap. My last post was dumb and I still havn't edited it . Need to wait to get my hand on a computer. Got my exams going on. Wanted to write something now cos in a few weeks time I will be done with college for my lifetime. I ll be graduated. That sounds like a big name but I don't really thing I am all tat big. I still feel like a kid. May be thats how I feel. Two exams got over, have 5 more left. I read a blog today about how facebook and twitter influenced his life and eventually made him deactivate either of his account. After reading it, I immediately wanted to remove my accounts as well. But I thought, why do I tweet. I realised twitter is more like my mini blog. You need not write something interesting or useful. You just write how you feel. And thats what I use twitter for. My blog of 140 characters with more than thousands of post, that is twitter for me. I like most of what people write on twitter by my followers, if not I wouldn't have come across that blog today. That is the very same reason why I blog.
Anyway can't wait to watch "despicable me" heard a lot about the movie. Wish I can see it with *you*. As for now, time to sleep, get up tomorrow and finish the rest of the portion. Got an exam on friday.
Good night :)

Midnight *damn I make really bad titles*

Its 2 30 in the night..
I have an alarm set at 7 30.
With 5 hours left for me,
I wait for dreams to take me over.
This sounds like a poem and yes it is.
The thoughts are killing me, y can't life be a little more easy.
I am at the end of my college life, waiting for my exams to commence, but I don't want the loneliness around me even if I don't care.
This is a dumb poem if u already realised and yes it is spontaneous cos thats how my mind plays fair.
Its past 2 30 and my room mates alarm just went off, guess she wil get up now to study.
This would have been better if it were not a poem but i some how feel very poetic, right now and I know I am a bad poet but I still continue.
The next time I decide to write a poem it wil not be all that bad because now I know wat a bad poet sounds like.

I want to write more till I see you in the dawn of the sun, in the hum of the birds. You r far away that only the cool breeze makes me feel you r next to me when you r actually miles away.

I try not to write of you in every post that I write but alas, I guess you are stuck in my heart and mind.

I love you, for your love to me. FOREVER.

P.S - sorry if i tortured you with my so called poetry .. If u think it was not all that bad do drop in a comment. Thank you. :)

updates from my life - exams from 9th to 23rd of august... Planning to go on a trip to some place after exams with college friends.. Mr S got a job... And is ill right now... Hope he's better by tomorrow... *Get well soon* .. My so called hang "fakey" is officially split and I doubt if we 'll get back.. Haven't been posting much cos i don't have a comp n mobile is my only means.. The last time i tried writing a post everythin got screwed cos i clicked cancel instead of "ok" on my mobile after writing the post... Will update my blog more often after I get back home... Last month of college... *guess tats too much update abt ma life* *time to sleep*

zzzzzzzzzZZZZZZZZZZ....
CheerSSSSSSSsssssss....
GOOD NiGht... :)