He's the one....

I don't know why I have this feeling but I know that he is the one I am to be with...

Wake up every morning to you sweet face and give u a kiss on the fore head...

Lay in your arms like a baby right next to your heart and keep listening to your heart beat...

That is all I ask for...

A love with sacrifices and compromising ready to do for just you... because I know we are meant to be together... I staunch feeling that you are and will always be... For your love without any expectations, without any thought about how our future is... to love me selflessly... that is all I ask for....

I am a cold person may be, but it doesn't mean I 've stopped loving.. I just dont show it when you are around but we are apart the feeling that you are not here with me, the feeling that we can not meet, the feeling that we can not talk is strange like some one is holding my throat and gripping me to death... But I never understand why I don't tend to show you how much I actually care and love you for being the other half of my life...

Internals AGAIN... :-/

I am always tensed... I hate myself for soooo many things I do... I have my internal exams from tomorrow... A week more and I will be home... Surprised I've already written 6 posts this month =D... Don't really feel like reading right now... I've already read once but not well... Just went through the portion... Why don't I get comments on my posts... Commenting is actually a kind of encouragement... Makes you want to write more... May be people don't find interesting stuff over my blog anyway I 'll still keep blogging... I am some how always scared that "my dad" might read my blog... Oh by the way I guess the habit of blogging comes from my dad, he writes a blog in tamil... And I can hardly read tamil... :-/

oh well... Internals this whole week... And saturday I will be HOMEEEEE =] Woppieeee.... But first I got to do my exams well... Dint even do my 1st internal exams well.. So no wonder I should be a little scared may be... I am more the kind of girl who likes life the easy way... *wel most of us do like it tat way, I guess*


off to studies, can't wait to blog... From My computer... :)
hugssss....

Back to black

Proves my confused state.. Proud :P

I some how like the same old black.. tried learning something to do with css and html.. all I could do was put the tweet icon after every post..

looks like I have a little too many T's over my blog...

My hopeless typing...

I have been using the net since a very long time probably since my 6th or 7th grade and yet my typing speed is an average of about 31 to 35 words per minute *sigh*. That is because I used the net only for chatting (basically) but later learnt to use it for doing other stuff... Learning new stuff and so on... Because of chatting all that I learnt is typing half words or short cuts, fast, but not the actual typing... Hmmm... from now on should try writing complete words. Lets see how far it works... :)

All the best to me
Laugh out loud!!!
Cheers!!!...

What Next.....

I am almost at the end of my college life.... rather, the end of student life... Studying since 21 years ( well 18 years to be precise ) and learnt a lot of things although forgot most of it.. but still I do remember the basics and other stuff... For all that I know is life is going to be much harder than I can think of.. I am used to be living life the easy way.. but it is not gona be the same any more.. Have to make myself more able and confudent to meet the evil and wild world...

Just when I think that This is what I want to do... There is something new that Turns up in my mind..

A couple of months and I will be a graduate... Physically... But don't really feel the maturity in me mentally... Hmmm... Don't know if that is good or bad ... Don't know if it will just happen or do I have to do it myself...

All that I know is I want to write a book and I want to do my post graduation, most probablly my masters... Earn a little money, enough to publish a book... But before that I have to think of what I ll be writing about...

Lots of stuff running in my mind...


Updates : studying, missing someone very badly, exited that I will be home in two weeks but don't really wana go home cos I can't meet _____ :(


Oh by the way, I just decided to jot down atleast one compliment I get everyday... :)

sleep time...
Zzzzz...

My blog

Why do I blog ? I just had a conversation with "X" yesterday and it turned out to be that I was being a little rude.

our conversation went something like this....

ME : hiiii :) *all happy*

X : Hi :-| *not so happy*

ME : whats wrong ? are you sleeping ?

X : yes, but I just woke up.

ME : are things fine ?

X : well.. kinda but I don't really feel nice about what happened in the afternoon.

ME : I am sorry but that was my fault. I shouldn't have shouted at you.Anyway guess what I wrote a blog post yesterday, actually wrote two.

X : Oh! what did you write about ?

ME: well don't get angry but I wrote about naga. I published it cos it was already saved in my drafts. And I wanted to write something.

X : Why did u have to publish it now ? Like you have fans waiting for you to read your blog

ME : *got angry* Its my wish. I don't care who reads my blog. I don't care even if you don't read. I write it for my satisfaction. Not to impress someone.

X : *gets angry* Fine. Do what you want I am not going to read your blog from now on.

ME : but that's not what I meant. You were the one who got all rude, first.

we continue having a couple of shouting and finally end with all mushy talks and every ones happy.

So the fact that I write my blog is not because I am trying to impress someone but I write a blog because I love writing like no one is reading it. It is some how easier for me to write what I feel than to talk about how I feel.

My blogging experience has eventually led me through a journey be a good writer some day and may be even write a novel, who knows....

And by the way how does my blog look now ? I felt the black background made my blog feel a little too dull, I myself never read what I wrote after publishing my posts but now things seem to be a little better :), with the new white background....

Updates (of my life) : started studying (got internals coming up from the 19th), don't really like talking much to people now a days, my dads joined twitter and is following me :-/ (which leaves me with an option to be less on twitter from now on), planning to write a post as frequent as possible, started following many blogs off late (turns out that many people, like me, write about stuff that comes to their mind, happy there aren't any rules to writing a blog, phewww ! ;))

Well, that's about it for the time being, should get back to hostel and have my cup of tea.

Till my next post....
Cheeerrrrssss :D

P.S - I am not gonna save any more drafts from now on, will write what I feel at that very moment. promise to my blog. Amen !

A very special person........

I 've been with this person for almost as long as I remember. We live in the same house. We love each other as much as each loves the other. We did almost every crazy thing since we were kids :) , troubled our parents, although they (parents) loved us. Shared all our secrets (well, almost even now ) Although the love towards each other reduced as we grew older, both of us had our own priorities and friends and hardly spent much time together, we never realize we were beginning to fall apart and the let distance keep growing.
Eventually, Since the day, had come when I had to leave my home, to join college, We missed each other pretty much but neither showed the feeling of missing the other. We almost shared the same movies interest, so the few rare times that we bonded was when we would go watch a movie ( mostly in pvr, because it was close to our old house :) )
He would tell me almost everything, the girls he liked, the friends he had.

Until one day when I came home and he started turning pretty caring with me.He missed all those sweet times and memories we had together as kids. Only then I realized that no matter how old you become although you have those FEW exceptions you cant share about, I probably like him the most among the people in my life may be because we spent so much time together :)

He is my brother.. the sweetest brother i could ask for.. although lazy and has a few bad habits but who doesn't.. I love him for the way he is... and miss all those childhood memories I shared with him....

Da guys in ma life

This post was written in the year 2008 and left unpublished that is why I am publishing now.

This is one topic i always wanted to write abt "the guys in my life"... Sounds interestin i hope... Wel... It was interestin to al da ppl i told... I jus wanted to maintain a record of al da guys tat hav been in a ma life... Al da guys i mean is apart from ma relatives...


'Guys' were one important part of ma life... Being wid gals makes me feel gay... I some hoe dont get along wel with girls... Weird... I ges...

There hav been gals in ma life right from primary classes... But there r few guys who have made an impact in my life...

but da guys who 've made an impact in ma life js left a foot print in ma life n left....... now ters js one guy left... his name is naga....NAGARJUNA YADAV....
his gf wil kill me if she sees this...

till my 10th I've always had a problem comunicating wid people (Specially guys)... thats y i hardly had anyn frnds, I mean guy friends frm skool.... I don communicate well wid guys now also but when i m alone wid them i manage to... basically i m not good in communicating wen i m in a group... anyway comin 2 tis guy naga.... hes given me a lot of support.. i ges hes da onli one who understands me da most....i love being wid him.... it doesnt make things ne different 4 him though, but he treats me as a realli gud frnd n thts enuf....

Although he's been such an impact in my life... he is no more (I mean v dont talk any more like before). There are so many thigns he finds irritating in me... according to him there are way too many... anyway this is just a post to let him know that he was always a good support for me...


when i startd writin tis post.. I had 3 guys in my mind about whom i wud b writin... but thn now i m left wid just one guy cos da rest two r pretty busy wid their lives n tey dont evn hav da courtesy 2 say hi.. its me who always hav 2 remind thm tht i m alive... da other 2 guys neway r RAVI KARKARA n DASIKA CHAITANYA...... ravi is a realli gud frn.... but hes tooo busy wid al da tension in his world.... no1 can b sweeter thn him... he must b hating me 2 wat i did wid him....lol... wat i did as in v had a fight thts it... n it was ma mistake.... but things are fine now.. and the other turned out to be AN ASSHOLE ( an understatement, but thats the only bad word I can use )

P.S - No i dont love him, he already has a gal in his life ( i think ) and so do I have a guy whom I really love and care about.

P.S.S - this was saved as a draft from a long time I just wanted to publish it cos one day in case he reads my blog he might know he was different from the rest...

P.S.S.S - V , You are the only guy in my live, n NO OTHER. I AM REALLY SORRY IF TIS POST OFFENDED YOU. I Will delete it, just in case.